Aku Rasa..

kalau dulu, sebut je nak pergi program, pergi daurah..
mesti aku liat and rasa reluctant gila nak spend duit nak travel.

kalau dulu, pantang kak naqibah ajak attend daurah,

Kompom aku ngelat

Macam2 alasan aku bagi.

walaupun hakikatnya takde halangan langsung, paling habis pon alasan yang aku bagi,

Banyak assignment nak buat.

padahal, bukan aku buat pun

Last2, memang 2 hari sebelum tarikh submit gak aku akan siapkan.

lately ni,

Aku rase terpanggil nak pergi mcm2 program,

entahlah..

aku rase mcm rugi pulak,

alang2 dah ade majlis ilmu,

tapi tak pegi.

lately ni, aku rase ape yg aku belanja selama ni,

sia2..

handbag yg byk2 tu, perfume, kasut,sume aku rase takde guna.

aku rasa mcm bazir je aku beli benda2 tu sume.

la ni aku tgh dilema.

either nak pegi daurah kat notts atau stay je kat rumah sebab nak attend birthday party.

kalau nak bandingkan gi daurah ng birthday pary, obviously la lagi befaedah gi daurah,

dalam hati aku nak pegi daurah, aku dah jadi tak pedulik dah dgn hrga tiket portsmouth -notts yg cecah sampai 50 pound tu, sebab

aku rasa, mcm lagi bazir duit kalau aku beli costume semata2 nk ikut tema birthday party tu.

tapi aku tau, aku belum kuat lagi kot nk tolak dunia ni.

walaupun dah sikit2 cuba menolak, tapi still magnet dunia tu lagi power, n berkesan nak tarik aku.

mungkin byk dosa, byk sgt cas2 negatif.

haihh.. la ni aku still tak decide whether to go for daurah or besday party.

aku just harap,

aku tak mati mase gi birthday party,

sesia hidup weh..

oklah. bye.

cerita hantu merosakkan akidah

Masalah..masalah..masalah...

Assalamualaikum, saya peminat filem hantu, drama atau movie yg bergenre horror dan thriller, tapi ape perkara yang saya bimbangkan, bila sejak 2 menjak ni banyak sangat cerita hantu yang ada ura2 untuk menyampaikan mesej bahawasanya, berkawan, bercinta dan berhubungan baik dengan hantu ni tak salah. 

hantu ni baik, boleh tolong kita, tak salah kawan dengan hantu. Astaghfirullah..sedar tak benda ni boleh rosakkan akidah umat Islam..contohnya kat atas tu, filem hantu susu tu, cerita ni langsung takde motif. tak payah buat terus pun takpe. Dalam cerita ni ade 4 ekor hantu yang cantik2, masing2 ada boyfriend dikalangan manusia yang waras, dan saya yakin diorang melakonkan watak sebagai seorang lelaki Islam. kalau anda ada anak bujang, mahukah anda bermenantukan penanggal, pontianak dan hantu kum kum?

ni satu lagi, ponti anak remaja. Cerita ni paling merapu dan membazir je buat. pon lebih kurang sama, manusia biasa yang waras tapi becinta dengan pontianak. dalam cerita ni, si ponti tu bagi benefit mcm2 dekat kawan2 baru die. 

sedar tak korang cerita mcm ni sbnrnya sgt syirik cume dalam bentuk moden? kalau dulu2,org tua2 dulu, kawan dengan hantu, sebab nak dpt benefit itu ini, lebih kurang la mcm cerita si ponti ni, cume yg ni hantu moden dan mnjelma dalam bentuk liyana jasmay yang cantik, ini sbenarnya satu bentuk subliminal message yg cube merosakkan akidah org islam yang dah makin huru hara sekarang..

haih..mayday..mayday..

hah, ni satu lagi. tau pon takut awek ko pontianak. kenapa  citer2 mcm ni boleh wujud, byk lagi bende lain yang boleh diketengahkan..

bulan lepas puasa, seperti yg umat melayu malaysia sedia maklum, bulan puasa je setan hantu kene rantai, kat astro boleh plak ade iklan camni.. "setelah sebulan mereka dirantai, kini mereka kembali mengganas"

punye la astro nak sambut kepulangan hantu2 setan tu selepas sebulan berpuasa, astaghfirullah..jahanam..jahanam la malaysia..

psstt..byk je lagi cte lain. melambak cuma aku malas nak carik and dah tak ingat tajuk. babai

Satu hari satu juzuk

22 ramadhan 143 hijrah.

assalamualaikum, melihat kepada tarikh di atas, supposedly aku dah sepatutnya masuk juz 22 atau pon 23, but unfortunately aku agak terlewat gara2, bulan mengambang hari tu. tapi takpe, skrg aku dah masuk gear 5, dari satu hari satu juzuk, aku buat satu hari cuba selesaikan 2 juzuk, alhamdulillah, dengan izin Allah, aku berjaya realisasikan aim aku untuk selesaikan 2 juzuk dalam 1 hari, kadang2 tu dpt habiskan 3 juzuk dlm 1 hari.

kalau sebelum ni, setiap satu hari aku aim satu juzuk, lepas habis setiap solat fardhu aku akan mengaji dalam 4 muka surat, since 1 juzuk ade 20 muka surat, dibahagikan dgn 5 kali waktu solat, maka mampulah utk aku selesaikan 1 juz satu hari.

tapi, kalau nk buat mcm ni, mmg takkan khatam la sampai hujung ramdhan ni, so aku terpaksa fikir strategi lain. utk mendapat 2 juzuk dalam 1 hari. caranya, lepas subuh, aku akan mengaji 10 muka surat, lepas zohor sambung lagi 10 muka surat, altogether dapat la 20 muka surat, bermakna selesai lah 1 juzuk, seterusnya aku buat perkara yg sama utk asar dan maghrib, so selesai lagi 1 juzuk, as for isyak, disebabkn lepas tu nak tarawikh, maka tak pat la aku ngaji, so tu psl hanya 2 juzuk je yg mampu aku sudah kan..

tapi semenjak dah makin penghujung ramadhan ni, sejak dah makin pahala melimpah2, aku dapat selesaikn 3 juzuk, cara yg sama jugak aku buat, cuma aku tambah period mengaji aku, kalau sebelum ni lepas isyak aku tak ngaji, tp skg ni aku akan ngaji lepas abis terawikh, dan aku tambah lagi satu waktu solat, iaitu selepas solat dhuha, aku akan ngaji jugak. alhmadulillah, dalam 1 hari aku mampu selesaikan 3 juzuk. syukur sgt.

sekarang ni aku masih dalam juzuk 21, walaupun harini dah 22 ramadhan, takpe, aku akan kejar jugak, aim aku nak kasi khatam 27 ramadhan. sebab.. maklumlah..hujung2 ramadhan bizi nak buat kuih ng rendang..

:P (aku manusia biase)

assalamualaikum..

takde idea nak buat title ape.

salam.. hai

Lately ni rase macam lost. Lost dalam banyak hal. Rase macam hidup takde matlamat yang betul.

Aku tau, jadikan Allah sebagai matlamat, tapi aku macam dah a litlle bit off track. Tahla, orang ajak gi daurah and usrah kat area kabilah sendiri, bukan aku tak berminat, tapi paham2 je lah, kat rumah ni, aku bukan senang nak begerak, nak keluar rumah pun susah, mak ayah mmg payah sikit nak bagi aku join bende2 usrah ni.

lately ni, dunia lagi banyak menguasai jiwa daripada akhirat. kepala otak aku asyik pikir pasal duit, risau duit cukup ke tak, risau ade duit ke tak nak boxing day (???), risau cukup duit ke tak nk g travel (???) , asik buat kira2 kewangan, tapi aku takde satu sen pon allocation tuk infak pi tabung amal palestine ke, gaza ke, tabung masjid jamek porstmouth terdekat ke..memang takde..takde langsung.

sume yang aku pikir, pasal hidup duniawi aku je, kenapa hah?

Aku ade termakan bende haram ke? tah la..boleh jadi jugak kan.. duduk uk tu, aku takde la makan main bantai, aku tgk ingredient, ade vegetarian ke tak, tapi aku kadang2 dalam hati aku ade rase doubt kalau aku makan kat luar. makan kat restoran chinese ke, ape ke, memang la makan seafood, tapi..tapi..

takpelah, aku berazam taknak makan luar la senang cte lepas ni, terutama kedai yg takde tanda halal. lantaklah, makan kens pon, kens la, janji die mmg takde jual bende haram kat dalam kedai die tu. Astaghfirullah....

Difference of Gender and sex are defined in the Quran

Notes from dr harlina halizah siraj- Merungkai perkaitan antara jantina gender dan seksualiti

It has been stated in the quran the difference between
Gender and sex.

Sex refers to genital organ that has created by lord to human being since they were born.

A baby who is born with penis and testis is called as boy or male

While, a baby who is born without penis and testis, instead having labia, clitoris and introitus is called as girl or female.

Gender-the word gender refers to the role of male and female in a society, according to culture and beliefs.

The aspects of masculinity and feminity is projected in defining the term gender.

****************************************

In the quran, the word
Gender(refers to role of male and female in a society) is equivalent to the word ar-rijal(men) and an-nisa'(women)

Refer to Al Quran: (4:1),( 4:32), (4:34)

While the word sex (refers to genital organ that human beings own) is equivalent to the words
Zakara (male) and untha (female)

Refer: (42:49), (92:3-4), (3:36)

http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=224887937530770

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ummi wa abi, ana uhibbu

Assalamualaikum..

Lamenye tak update blog. kali ni nak berbahasa ibunda lah. ok, tajuk diatas ditulis dalam bahasa arab, tatau betul ke tidak. maksudnye, "ayah dan mama, saya sayang awak"

28 may until 12 of june haritu, my parents came. saje for visit. Alhamdulillah, terima kasih ya Allah kerana Parents aku masih dikurniakn rezeki yang cukup, utk sampai ke sini, bukan semua ade peluang macam yang ayah dan mama saya dapat.

terima kasih ya Allah kerena memanjangkn umur mama ayah saya dan beri peluang kepada mereka utk datang ke sini, tgk saya kat portsmouth, how my life is going on, tgk tempat org, jalan2 semua lah..

terima kasih ya Allah kerena meminjamkan kudrat kepada mama dan ayah saya utk bertahan berjalan kaki beribu2 kilometer sementara diorg ade dekat sini, maklumlah, kalau kat malaysia, ade kereta, kat sini, mmg make use of public transport tu 100%, mama yang tak biasa jalan kaki pon, alhamdulillah boleh kuat dan gagah tuk bejalan, ayah yang lutut sakit2 tu pon masih gagah nak bejalan, time kasih Ya Allah kerena kurniakan kesihatan yg baik kepada mama ayah saya sepanjang diorg ade di sini,

dan terima kasih juga ya Allah sebab bagi mama ayah saya kekuatan utk bertahan dengan perubahan cuaca, perubahan angin, makan, sejuk panas yang tak menentu kat negara 4 musim ni. ALhamdulillah ya Allah.. terima kasih sangat2.

selain menyatakn apresiasi saya terhadap kurniaan tuhan ni, saya juga ingin menulis pasal apa saya rasa masa mama ayah saya datang.

ini lebih kepada perasaan yang melankolik. boleh jadi meloyakan. jika anda ade sakit dalam hati, sile berhenti dan pegilah mane2 blog lain seperti saifulislam, iluvislam, chedet dan sebagainye.

Ok, sepanjang keberadaan mama ayah saya selama 2 minggu dekat portsmouth ni, saya tatau ape sebenarnye yang saya rasa.

Happy pon ade, takut, bedebar, rasa nak marah, letih, penat, sedih, semua ada.

Kedatangan mama ayah saya ke sini, memberi saya lesson yang sgt berguna yang saya boleh ambil ini sebagai Sign dari Allah bahawasanya saya ini memiliki tanggungjawab yang besar terhadap kedua ibu bapa saya.

1. masa mama ayah ade dekat sini, semua perbelanjaan mereka saya tanggung, ye betul mmg diorg bawak duit diorg sendiri, tp mmg cukup2 utk diri diorg sendiri, saya tak tergamak nak pau duit ma ayah sebab tak sanggup. sebab saya tahu, duit yang diorg dtg ke sini tu, hasil duit kerja diorg yang diorang kumpul semata2 nak dtg sini dan rasa macam mana lah duduk uk.

jujur saya besyukur dan berterima kasih kepada Allah dan kem pelajaran malaysia sebab masukkan elaun awal, kalau tak, saya takkan boleh tampung belanja mama ayah saya dekat sini.

bila keadaan macam ni, saya terfikir, ya Allah, aku beruntung sgt dapat mak ayah yang bekerja, yang ade pendapatan sendiri, macam mane ye orang2 yang mak ayah diorg tak bekerja, anaknya kene tanggung mak ayah diorg besok bile dah tua.

2. sepanjang mama ayah ade kat sini, aku stress sebab aku kene jaga makan minum diorg.

jujur aku cakap, aku amik mase 2 hari gak dari 2 minggu tu utk cube tukar mind set aku, bahawasanya, segala perbelanjaan makan, minum mama ayah aku kat sini, semua aku tanggung, penyediaan makan minum mama ayah semua aku kene buat.

ok

selama ni aku duduk sorang2. almost 2 years dah aku ade kat sini, sepanjang 2 tahun ni la pemakanan aku terumbang ambing. ikut suke hati aku je nak makan bile2, bile perut aku lapa, baru aku makan, kalau aku lapa, tapi aku malas nak masak, aku akan tido, kalau aku lapa gile, aku mkn cereal ng susu je, makan pon sehari sekali, sumpah hidup aku huru hara, i mean dr segi jadual makan, sgt bekecamuk.

bila summer break balik malaysia, of course la tak yah risau, mama ayah ade tanggung makan minum aku, aku balik rumah mmg mcm cik puan besar la, kalau nak makan, cakap je, ayah g beli. senang.

di takdirkan Allah, Allah uji aku, dgn kedatangan mama ayah aku selama 2 mingguuu jee..

selama 2 minggu tu, aku lah yg kene masak, aku kene siapkan sarapan diorg, makan tengah hari, makan malam, semua aku kene pikir. bukan mama tak tolong, tapi, ye lah, ni kan rumah aku, mestilah aku kene layan. diorg tetamu, kene la layan baik2.

seriusly, utk 2 hari petama aku stress sebab, aku ni kan malas masak, tibe2 ayah aku kate die lapar, "ko tak masak ke t?"

masalahnya aku tak lapar, buat ape aku nak masak?

gosh..memangla selama ni aku pikir perut aku sorg2, la ni, mama ayah ade, takkan la aku nak biar mama ayah sesuaikn perut diorg biar adapt mcm perut aku. time lapar baru makan, kalau malas tahan je lapar..

cannot..cannot..tak buleh..tak buleh..

Aku pon dgn malas, melangkah ke dapur, buat lauk yg paling pemalas lam dunia iaitu sup ayam. sup kan senang, campak2 je, tak yah nak tumis2, pastu tunggu sampai masak, pastu hidang..senang...

aku duduk sorg2 dalam bilik, menyendiri, stres sampai aku nangis. stress sebab aku pemalas sgt, sampai mak ayah lapar nak makan pon aku boleh mengeluh2. Astaghfirulah33x. lama aku duduk lam bilik, pura2 kemas2 bilik, padahal menangis. aku duduk. senyap, tgk luar tingkap.

aku pon pikir.

mak ayah aku, aku tak rasa diorg penah reject pemintaan aku nak makan itu ini, bila aku terase nak makan ape2 pon. diorg usaha jugak nak adakan utk aku. aku ni plak, boleh ade perasaan malas nak masak padahal mak ayah tgh lapar ni..

haih..teruk..teruk

tak buleh..tak buleh.. tak elok mcm ni, bedosa. aku pun mintak kat Allah..ya Allah please la, pinjamkan lah aku sikit kerajinan nak masak walaupun utk 2minggu ni je.

kadang2 aku rasa, mak ayah aku datang ni, salah satu cara tuhan nak sedarkan aku, yg aku ni da tak sepatutnya being selfish. aku ni dah besar, anak dara yang bosa, yang tah2 2-3 tahun lagi akan kawin, kalau cam ni la perangai aku bawak sampai aku kawin, memang kene talak kot aku ni. nak masak pon malas. terima kasih ya Allah..terima kasih.. atas lesson yang diberikan, time kasih sebab anta mama ayah saya ke sini, utk mngajar saya jadi lebih bertanggungjawab sikit, bukan je utk diri sendiri, tp rasa bertanggungjawab utk keperluan org lain.

3. kedatatangan mama ayah saya menyedarkan saya yang diorang dah tak sekuat dulu lagi.

dulu masa kecik2, saya tengok ayah saya sebagai seorang yg sangat gagah, ayah lah kuat, ayah saya hero, ayah saya boleh jalan jauh, ayah saya boleh panjat gunung tahan, boleh joging sustain lame2, boleh berenangg jauuuhhh..sampai sy tatau mane tah ayah pegi kat tgh laut tu.

bila ayah datang sini, aku sedar, ayah dah tak macam dulu, uban die dah banyak dah skang. kalau dulu pantang ade sehelai, die suruh aku cabut, aku pon tolonglah cabut, sampai skang ni, dah banyak gile, sia2 je kalau aku tolong cabutkan.

aku penah baca dulu, uban tak elok cabut, sebab dengan uban ni lah boleh ingatkan kite tentang mati. damn..bapak aku dah banyak uban..ahhhh (sroott2-aku nangis)

aku memang tau, ayah aku sakit lutut, aku pon tatau nape, aku anggap je la proses penuaan. rumah aku ni pulak betangga-tangga. nak masuk ade tangga, dalam rumah pon ade tangga, nak pi tandas pon naik tangga. ayah aku plak lutut tak berapa nak elok. amik mase sikit la nak naik tangga tu. bila dah mcm tu, aku dah tak leh nak tgk dah bapak aku kalau naik tangga. masa awal2,2-3 hari petama ayah ade kat sini aku akan naik paling laju, sebab aku tanak tgk ayah aku naik tangga slow2.

then, aku duduk lam bilik sorg2, aku nangis lagi. kali ni aku nangis time lepas semayang asar. ni kaw2 punye nangis. tak boleh tahan weyh, nak terima hakikat ayah kite dah tua tu..dah tak kuat mcm dulu..adoi..sipot betol..

aku duduk sorg2, aku doa kat tuhan, ikhlaskan lah hati aku ni, nak terima hakikat yang ayah aku tu dah tak kuat lagi mcm dulu, die dah mula sakit2, which is very true according to the circle of human life, sebijik yg di mention dalam quran. aku nangis30x....

aku pon mintak kat tuhan, tolong lah ya Allah, kurnikanlah izzah kat lutut bapak aku tu, tuk bertahan dgn tangga2 yg ada. maun aku tak risau, ni baru kat rumah ni, die dah mengaduh sakit, tu belum g london ng paris naik tube yg mmg betangga2 bagai tu. adoi..aku mmg cuak gile kalau tbe2 bapak aku sakit tak leh gerak kaki ke..ya Allah30x... mmg bejurai la air mata..air hidung sume keluar..aku mintak sgt2 dgn tuhan, kuatknlah kaki bapak aku tu, bukan setakat 2 mggu ni je, tapi seumur hidup die.

lepas dari sesi muhasabah diri lepas asar tu, aku tak jalan laju lagi dah, aku tunggu belakang ayah aku bile die naik tangga. lambat pon lambat la, aku tunggu jugak ayah naik dulu. barang aku tak bagi die angkat bile die naik tangga. bialah aku yang angkat.

nama aku kan Izzati-mestilah kuat.

mama alhamdulillah, mama still ok lagi, walaupun badan die gatal2, maklumlah, perubahan cuaca, tp ok la boleh diubati dgn lotion E45. tu je lah masalah kesihatan mak aku. masalah manja sikit. pempuan..

semenjak daripada tu, lepas asar yang aku nangis2 tu, aku terus tambah dalam doa aku. kalau selama ni aku doa kat tuhan, tolong kurniakn aku, laki yang sayang aku semata2 kerana Allah je, tp la ni aku kene tambah sikit ayat.

kurniakan aku laki yang sayang aku dan mak ayah aku seperti mana die sayang mak ayah die sendiri, semata2 kerana Engkau.

perlu kot aku doa camtu..sebab, aku ni dahla sorang...anak tunggal..kompom2 la mak ayah aku, aku kene jaga. buatnye aku dapat suami yg perangai selfish cam sipot, tanak tolong aku jaga mak ayah aku, naya je. desperate sgt, aku mintak fasakh kot. hahah..

mama ayah kite sayang kat ayah and mama.

insyaallah panjang umur jumpe lagi. bulan 7 ni kite balik :p

nanti urusan rumah tangga, biar kite take over eh. ma ayah gi skolah, balik dr sekolah, nasi n mkanan dah siap terhidang, sampah dah terbuang, rumah kemas dah besapu, habuk sume clear. insyaallah.

:)

Assalamualaikum

Imam Muda-Young Imam

o my god o my god o my god!

ok i think something went wrong here. why suddenly i'm writing about imam muda?

1st, i happened to know that one of my fren in my facebook is among of the contestant of imam muda for season 2. (ok, mencapap)..well, yes, i get excited when i knew this. i watched it via streaming from www.malaymoviesfull.blogspot.com

for those who doesnt have astros or living in overseas, here is the link where u can watch the young imam, for every week, this 1st episode of season 2 is on air. but it doesnt provide the English subtitles, that's a shame.

anyway, in my excitement of knowing about the positive comments from the BBc, reuters and medias about our show, from malaysia, while i was excited googling things about this imam mudas stuff, i came across a blog, seems have bombarding negative views about imam muda, all those comments, the entries, feedbacks from the readers of the blogs, are all CRAP.

I'm sorry, i dunno what religion do u guys believe in, but I feel offended when some people commenting the ritual of "washing corpses"??-memandikan mayat, and saying that slaughtering of sheep publicly, on air, as something non-human act and for entertainment?? and accusing the muslim world like to steal and copy catting western shows, are everything about imam muda...ohh.. you guys are illiterate. sorry. that's the best word describes YOU.

this is the link and where u can find all the silly comments from the silly guys

http://www.jihadwatch.org/2011/04/young-imam-season-2-who-will-win-the-corpse-washing-competition.html

HELLO cant you take that as education? if u say washing corpses or dead body,or making sheep as objects for entertainment, we should banned "Shaun the sheep and The MUMmy too..(return or no return..:P) we have exploited those thing as entertainment. owh..that's very sinned..(ok, enough)

you know what, the "washing corpse" thing is an honour. not only for the dead, in fact for those living creatures too. (if u comfortable enough of not taking shower, *do as u please..) i dunno and i've never seen how, other people from other religion take care of your relatives' "Corpses" when they died. because i am a muslim, and we have ethic in taking care of the dead body, and i bet u guys have one too.

from bathing the deceased to shrouding, from shrouding to janazah prayer( funeral prayer), from janazah prayer to burial of the deceased, and reciting du'a for the deceased. These are the best step that Islam has taught, to take care of the deceased.

well, about the slaughtering thingy, i think so many people out there, especially the orientalist or the anti-muslim people, always use this as their "Modal"-their object to hentam islam. haih, it's a waste of time explaining things to ignorant. IGNORANT.

anyway, we called this as qurban, qurban means sacrifice. ok, muslim concepts of sacrifice in this context is to purify our possession, assets, by buying the an'am animal (means can be slaughtered for the purpose of qurban) using our money, and we share and give sadaqah (the beef or mutton) to all the poor people. why we have to slaughter? because that's what have been set in the syariah.

there are things we cannot ask and find for logical reason in our life, there are things we cant questions. There are things we cannot see. This is what a muslim have to accept.

so those who are not satisfied, please go to the nearest mosque in your town, talk to the imam or any nearby muslim fren that u have, and seek for answers. dont blame. dont judge. dont comment.(stupid comment, i mean)

oh, about the copy catting western thing...well, we don't simply copy what you are doing because you guys are not that cool to be idolized.

ohh..BTw, i saw, somebody comment like this in that blog:

Wow, sick as hell.

However, if I were to judge, I'd say they all lose since they speak Malay and not Arabic and the "best" Imam will, of course, speak Arabic

well, you know why prophets had been sent to arabic people, because they are amongst the most kepala batu human being that ever exist in human history. Prophets had been sent to them to change their harsh attitude, so that they can be a good human being. you guys arab people are not cool pon...

super duper moron. sorry for judging. bye!

surah anbiya' ayat 1

"Telah semakin dekat kepada manusia perhitungan amal mereka

Sedang mereka dalam keadaan lalai dengan dunia

berpaling dari akhirat

(21:1)

This ayat is like a big slap to me. I feel like someone slap me on my face without prior notice.

I was thinking, oo.. there's still plenty of hours before class at 10, so i want to sleep for a while, probably until 9, but..

after I had came across this ayat, omaigod... macam kene penampar tau tak.

Time kasih utk tadabbur pagi yang cool.

Aurat dalam rumah sendiri

Assalamualaikum.

Tiba2 rasa nak becakap isu aurat. Bende lame. sebelum akhil baligh lagi dah tau.
aurat perempuan, menutup seluruh anggota badan kecuali muka dan pergelangan tangan (ayat jawapan exam fiqh mase sekolah agama kecik2 dulu).
aurat lelaki dari pusat sampai lutut (pun jawapan buku teks dulu2).
oklah boring, buang mase je ulang.

Isu aku skang ni adalah, aurat aku dengan sepupu laki2 belah mak aku, dan dengan pak-pak sedara yang kawin dgn adik badik perempuan mak dan ayah aku.oh dan juga, abang2 ipar (in my case, i anak tunggal, sepupu ipar yang lelaki).

feww..sumpah..selama ni aku neglect kot benda ni. bukan ape, tak tefikir. yelah, rasa selamat, dalam rumah sendiri. bukan orang lain, family members, relatives sendiri. pedulik ape.

tak boleh izzati, tak boleh. Sekarang, kamu dah tau, dah ade ilmu, amalkanlah. apa guna, ada ilmu, tapi tak amal? ibarat ada akaun facebook, tapi takde kawan. (what the heck?)

aku mula sedar benda ni start aku form 4, dulu, masa mula islamisasi berlaku dalam diri aku, sebab masuk mrsm jasin, n now known as mrsm TGB. bermulalah, isu tudung kene jahit kat tengah, kalau tak jait kene letak 3 pin. jangan sengseng lengan, stokin pakai, stokin jarang kene maki, tudung kene jatuh, tak boleh simpang tudung...
blueck..bosan2..lame issue..dah belalu dah zaman tu..

time kasihla akak2 senior yg poyo, yg menegur sana sini, alhamdulillah, kerana anda, saya maintain bertudung tutup dada, kerana anda saya dah tak pakai tshirt 3 suku, dan berstokin bila keluar. alhamdulillah. dulu saya buat ni semua atas dasar peraturan, akhirnya saya berjaya ikhlaskn hati saya utk lakukan ini semua kerana Allah dan atas dasar tak nak carik pasal dgn Allah. terima kasih. jasamu dikenang.

ok, melalut dah ni, isu yg aku nk cakp ni, isu aurat dgn family members yg aku senarai tadi. ok, semenjak dari aku form 4, and dah agak2 insaf bab2 aurat ni, aku pon mula la nak ambik inisiatif, untuk mengenakan tudung di dalam rumah.

lokasi:rumah wan
(suasana kampung yang meriah, sanak saudara pulang ke kampung, berkumpul bersama)

scene 1
X: Ko ape hal betudung2 ni ti? ko nak pi mano? (loghat negeri sembilan)
aku:...

scene 2
Y: ko ape sal betudung ni ti? ko malu dgn bang XXX ke?
aku:...

well, susah jadi aku, nak berjuang dalam keadaan family aku, yg nk kata jauh dgn islam tu, takde la, semayang la jugak diorg, but u know..muslim biasa..tatau la nak istilahkan mcm mana. but, that's how it is. agak dilema la.

mak ayah aku pon tak pernah tegur. sume bende aku kene buat sendiri2, sorang2. kalau nak ikutkan, sedara mara aku yg perempuan yg lain tu, tak pyh nk jaga sgt, sebab, sepupu aku yg laki2 tu, adik beradik ng diorg. kirenye, dalam ramai2 cucu wan aku tu, mmg aku la yang wajib amik extra precautions tuk hal2 macam ni.

eh cop2..not exactly, they still have to think about my ayah, nak ikutkan itu aurat. haih, oi korang, jom la pakai tudung. ko ingat tak dosa ke korang tunjuk rambut korang depan bapak aku, depan paktam?depan bang wan hah?
aish..siot tol..

mujahadah.
yes, that's the keyword. perubahan menuntun perngorbanan. betul, once bile dah betudung dalam umah sendiri, orang akan heran, bertanya, pelik, sebab cara kite befikir tak sama macam diorang.

Pasni kalau aku balik kampung, aku dah kene betudung 24 jam, tgklah, kalau sume pempuan, aku tanggal la, rimas kot. gtulah nampaknya. This is my choice. for my own sake, dunya wal akhirah.

kalau ade sape2 yang rasa nak ikut, jom la.

"biar letih kene seksa didunia, daripada sakit diseksa diakhirat kelak"

Ku mohon kau pinjamkan izzah buat diriku ya rabb.

Hadis 12

hadith 12:Keelokan seorang mukmin adalah meninggalkan perkara yang tidak berfaedah.

عَنْ أَبِي هُرَیْرَةَ رَضِىَ الله عَنْهُ قَالَ: قَالَ رَسُولُ الله صَلَّى الله عَلَيْهِ وَسَلَّم : (( مِنْ حُسْن
إِسْلاَمِ المَرْءِ تَرْآُهُ مَا لاَ یَعْنِيْهِ)) حدیث حسن رواه الترمذي وغيره هكذا
Daripada Abu Hurairah r.a beliau berkata: Rasulullah SAW telah bersabda:
Sebahagian daripada keelokan seorang mukmin ialah meninggalkan apa yang tidak berfaedah baginya. Hadis ini Hadis Hasan, diriwayatkan oleh al-Tarmizi dan lain-lain sedemikian.

haih, i'm an ugly mukminah.
i should say bye..

1. horror movies
2. Facebook
3. karaoke
4. watchword-bnda lagha
5. Bye cakap2 kosong
6. bye cerekarama
7. bye handbag

Espana, spain, sepanyol

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

hello, this is my second entry for 2011, the first entry of the new semester and hoping it might not be the last entry in my blog. Insyaallah..

Previously, previously i have shared with you about my travelogue on my 15 days journey of Kelana Convoy. Now I would like tell a little bit about my experience on my jaulah, and this time it's Spain!

Alhamdulillah, it is along journey, 1 hour and half flight from stansted London to Seville, Spain.And we took a different journey for return to london which is via Girona, Barcelona to Gatwick, London. (we look for the cheapest method). and this time it took around 2 hours and a half. Thanks to Ryan Air for the good bargain.

We went to 5 different capital city which are Seville, Granada, Cordova, Madrid and Barcelona. these jaulah took 8 days to be completed which is from 17-24th of december 2010, and, we managed to spend below than 500 pounds for everything, including transportation, hostels and hotels, foods, souvenirs and tickets ;)

The 1st city- Seville (17-18 december 2010)

we landed in seville airport quite dark at that moment, then we took taxis to go to oasis backpackers hostel. It was quite difficult for us to find the hostels, we asked people here and there but most of the people around, are helpful but due to language barrier, it was quite difficult for us to communicate to ask for direction but in the end..Alhamdulillah...we managed to find it. :)


Entrance of the Cathedral



on the next day, our first stop was at the Alcazar. it is a very huge and seems like a city. There palace, Bath place, Mosque and now has become a church. There a are a lot of carvings that written in arabic letters, and we can see the phrase 'la ila ha ilallah' which means there is no god but Allah on the walls. some of them are carved and using mosaic art.


In front of the Alcazar


Patio De Las Doncellas


Baths of Lady Maria De Padilla





no idea what building is that :P

after that, after we got split, my friends adlyn ipi, and I wandered around all over places searching for the other girls. but our searching was turned to nothing but it ended up until we arrived at another toursit attraction which is plaza de espana:)






these are the pictures of Plaza de Espana. There are list of drawings on mosaic and brief history of every state in spain.

oh by the way, we had missed our bus to granada which supposedly depart at 5 oclock but, due to malfunction info counter. the drawback was, we nedd to pay extra 6 euro which previously the ticket was 16 euro. and our next bus will be boarded at 11 pm. peace Y. That was really torturing and realy testing my patience. stranded at somewhere that have no halal foods, no proper place to pray, proper toilet and people that seeing u as stranger was just terrible.

19-20 of december 2010-Granada

5 hours journey from seville to granada, we finally arrived at our booked hotel. several things happen here, and again, really teach me a lesson on patience. several problem occur, money goes out, same goes to our energy,it channels through my anger and yes, sweat..

two days in Granada, i think this is the best city among 5 places that we went in spain, it's very historic, traditional, and i can still smell the glory of Islam that was once abig authority in spain, that brings spain from dark ages to a remarkable empire which now entirely left as an history.

In Granada, we visited al-hambra, this is the place where islamic system and rules were implemented, huge building, mosque, palace that full of carvings that Glorify the lord were carved in every angle of the wall, but , that remain as history. There's no use for that, as it's just remind me of the fall of islamic empire-abasiyyah period in spain, and how they worship arts more than they worship God. they started to neglect their obligation, forget about jihad, forget to spread dakwah as they were very in a comfort zone, until, they were attacked by the moghul soldiers, and that's it. no more Islam in spain. everything is disappeared.

no more azan(call for prayer). no proper place for us, to pray. no proper place for ablution. we, are seen as very strange to them because we wear hijab. that's how islam is very odd to them. it seems that the people have no idea at all. everything is demolished. every truth is hidden until the people are blind of their history.







for your information, In Granada, there is a place a place call islamic street, where there are abundances of things are sold along the street. those who are leather maniac, u can have a good bargain for purse, jackets, bags, hanbags shoes and other beautiful stuffs which are mostly come from middle east countries. all the leather stuffs are mostly come from morrocco, and in here, we found halal kebab shop, and I had shawarma pollo (chicken kebab), and it was really nice, and finally i can eat CHICKEN!

we also tried several other spanish cuisin like tapas-kind of desert, it wont make u full at all.. we also tried churos, bit like cha koy that we have in malaysia, it's just that, we eat them together with hot chocolate, and we also had paellas for the first time. Paellas is just like fried rice but, it's flooded with gravy, and we can choose what flavour that we want.:)








21 december 2010-cordova

we just spent one night in cordova, as there is nothing much to see anyway, but this is the most important visit i would say among the other places. in cordova, we had visited the mezquita mosque, which historically, was a mosque but now it has become a church. it's basically a church built over mosque. however, we happened to find out, these fact were hid and altered. They, those that have sickness in their heart, claim that, this mezquita "church' was invaded and was made as mosque, and when christian gain back the authority from islam, it changed back into church.

what a sick and pathetic lies that u made. hello people, wake up, the information provided in the brochure were totally false and those who believe in that, u guys are cheated! if u want to learn history, dont just look at one side source or else u will have one sided mind that's why people are prejudice with islam. the mezquita mosque was once a mosque, and now it is a church. i can see these people effort demolishing the islamic features that exist in the mosque. Again, U people are pathetic. get that fact right!




mezquita mosque

22 december 2010-madrid

Madrid, a big city, modern, lively, chaotic, and busy. we just look around the town, took pictures which we don't really visit them, and have no idea what are the names of the building. :P
oh yes,

i went to Madrid FC stadium babeh ;)








plaza de trorres, where silly human being risking their life fighting with bulls





Behind is the statue of a bear "kissing" (i don't know what exactly it's doing there) the madranyo tree. the name Madrid is belived to be originated from the name of this tree.

23 december 2010-Barcelona ;)

Barcelona is the last destination for jaulah in spain. the first visit was Gaudi park, where Gaudi, was an architect, and most of his architecture are inspired by nature. he believed that, building should have no angle, not too rigid and have to resemble nature. he's quite Gothic though.There were lost of lizard statue on his creation. he's design seems weird to me and that makes them look different and special.

other than that, we visited the La Sagrada Familia, which is a cathedral. a huge cathedral, where the construction began since 1882 but up till now, the construction is havent completed yet, and it is expected to be completed in 2041. It has creepy look, eerie and gothic.







24 december 2010-
Girona, barcelona to gatwick

that's the end of our journey. farewell spain..



jaulah spain leaves thousand stories for my friends and me. I strengthen our friendship, makes me know friends well, that makes me realise difference of a friend and good friend. there is a difference :)
I learn a lesson that might not be taught in lectures or courses in university. maybe there is, but, the understanding is different when u have hands on experience ;)
God has spoken to me, God has delivered a very important lecture to me along this journey. i got the message. thanks very much

Syukur 21

Assalamualaikum..
Lame betul rasanya tak menulis, maklumla, bz tulis essay tuk assignments :P

Dah masuk 2011, tapi apa yang aku achieve, aku pun tatau..tapi ape2 pun, i'm grateful enough for what I have in my life up till now.Banyak sgt bende wajib disyukuri, kalau nak list, air laut pun belum tentu cukup utk mnjadi dakwat.cewah..

nak tulis ape pun tatau. Haritu tgk blog Hanis zalikha, model yang tengah naik tu, tetarik dengan entry die yang satu tuh, Nak tirulah. tak salahkan, bukan benda buruk pun. hehe..korang pun penah je plagiarise...mcm aku tatau..

disini adalah senarai kesyukuran yang mungkin nmpak remeh, but it's very meaningful to me :)

syukur 1: saya masih bernafas disaat menulis entry ini.

syukur 2: saya sudah kenyang, baru tadi makan bubur nasik. burrp..Alhamdulillah..

syukur 3: harini saya masih boleh memberi, siang tadi saya masak lauk sardin, saya boleh belanja housemate saya makan masakan saya, saya bahagia.

syukur 4: Dengan kudrat yang Allah pinjamkan untuk saya, pagi tadi saya berjaya siapkan satu assignment saya. 2075 words. alhamdulillah..

syukur 5: Allah panjangkan umur mama saya, 2 januari hari tu mama saya dah masuk 48 tahun...

Syukur 6: Saya dapat skype dengan mama dan ayah saya petang tadi, Happy tgk mereka sehat dan bahagia.

syukur 7: saya ade housemates yang best.

syukur 8: Laptop saya masih sehat walaupun kadang2 buat hal.

syukur 9: saya masih ade hati nak usrah.

Syukur 10: usrati saya makin bertambah.

syukur 11: gembira dengan jaulah spain yang sangat bermakna and byk mengajar saya utk lebih bersabar.

syukur 12: Saya gembira kawan2 saya dah mula bertudung.

syukur 13: saya happy utk kawan saya yang dah mula bertudung labuh. (walaupun masih malu2 lagi). Go sayang!

Syukur 14: lately ni saya banyak tejaga malam, and i have the chance to perform the qiyam.

syukur 15: saya ade perasaan teringin nak pakai tudung labuh, tapi rase macam tak berapa nak lagi, sebab saya masih mahu berfesyen dgn mcm2 baju yang ade di pasaran.(mangsa consumerisme)

syukur 16: saya dapat satu lagi handbag baru time boxing day aritu. thanks for the rezeki :)

syukur 17: Kawan saya cakap rambut saya cantik

syukur 18: tak tefikir nak free hair bile dah ade orang puji macam diatas.

syukur 19: Allah lembutkan hati saya utk mudah terima nasihat

syukur 20: saya syukur sebab dah ade 2 ade kakak naqibah yang baik, caring, cantik dan penyabar dengan orang macam saya.

syukur 21: saya masih reti nak besyukur.

Thanks very much!